headache. stress. avoiding. try not to think abt it.
no one to share with.. my loved one rather see tv than chat with me.
everything he'll be saying tml and tml say. tml never comes.
feeling so heart broken. will this job tie me down?
will it cost me lifetime at his place because of this job?
i had to find myself a way. to know how to go myself to work from my place, because i know i can never rely on him. no matter what happens, what we been thru, we are just not meant for each other. im hiding inside. i know he can never be my listening ear and never will be the one i need. what am i suppose to do? if im crying, if im excited, he never will know, and never will wish to ask. why am i staying here? can someone do what i love to do with me? share with me every single thing how i feel in my heart.

saturday, Shine youth event. we all reach Ngee Ann Civic at 12pm. Zhangbin reach at 1pm. Angela the idiot reach the latest. we all waited under the sun until she reach and sun tanned together again. so tired, drink lotsa water eat lotsa food as we sweat alot. had a lil fun with the phototaking of funny creatures in their costume :x and shop a lil too. im now very broke.~! its my rest day today :)

01. What have you been doing recently?
-thinking of the far new office.
02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
-Yes. When I cant stand keep myself checking on my phone.
03. What happened at 10am today?
-Creating albums in facebook.
04. When did you last cry?
-last Saturday.
05. Believe in fate/destiny?
-I suppose.
06. what do you want in your life right now?
-Lotsa money. Beauty and health.
07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
-I will keep an umbrella if I think its gonna rain.
08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
-bolster.
09. What bottom are you wearing now?
-leggings. Ok I know tat sucks a bit.
10. What's the nicest tag in your inbox say?
-Nth much. My tag is sorta dead anyway.
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
-Ya. Always do.
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
-no. I dun like lending and borrowing.
13. What was the last movie you caught?
-Monsters vs Aliens. But not at cinema. haha
14. What are you proud of?
-currently my back stunt lol.
15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
-what details need to sent to the applicants. lol
16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
-I dunno leh. Long time no sing too.
17. Do you have any nicknames?
-no leh now haha.
18. What's something you really want right now, be honest?
-turn back time.
19. What time did you go to bed last night?
-12midnight or 1 plus.
20. Are you currently happy?
-trying. But still okay.
21. Who gives you best advice?
-I dun heed anymore advice. Its tiring.
22. Do you eat whipped cream out of a can?
-when I was very young. lol
23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
-I wished but no one to chat with. 
24. Is anything bugging you right now?
-yes. Quite a number. Guess im gonna have white hair very soon..
25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
-hmmm. Dun have wor.
26. Do you have a little sister?
-can I skip this question.
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
-ive deleted them all. lol
28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
-ya but its okay.
29. What annoys you most in a person?
-a Chinese trying to speak very slang.
30. Have you ever done cocaine?
-ever.
31. What is the colour of your room?
-I think its white?
32. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
-most likely no ba.
33. Where is your cell phone?
-here.
34. Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
-haha why not.
35. Did you speak to your dad today?
-yea. Not so much.
36. Name something you did yesterday?
-dinner. Smoke a lot. Being raise voice at. lol
37. Where's is your ex-girlfriend/boyfriend?
-working. Dunno exact location.
38. Do you have a life?
-fooking life.
39. What colour is your hair?
-ash brown. I LOVE IT!
40. What's the reason behind your blog song?
-if I were him ill feel this way.
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
-I hadn’t had enuf sleeping hrs for a dream.
42. Last time you smiled?
-before this survey.
43. Have you changed this year?
-uglier.
44. What are you listening right now?
-nil.
45. Are you talking to someone when you're doing this?
-nope.
46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
-ive tried both. So which?
47. Is there a quote you live by?
-what la?
48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
-Yes. But no longer cares.
49. Are you waiting for something?
-waiting to get off work la!
50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
-to let go of everything and change of everything to do with my life.
51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?
-bathing.
52. Do you like it when you get kissed on the forehead?
-very no feeling loe.
53. Do you text message alot?
-recently just started more.
54. What was the last thing you drank?
-pomegranate tea
55. Who always make you laugh?
-I have not had true laughter for a long time.
56. Do you speak other language other than English?
-Mandarin. And for u to find out.
57. Favourite website(s)?
-facebook.
58. What's your middle name?
-ming
59. What are you doing tomorrow?
-im gonna drink!
60. What do you think you are like?
-whatever u think I am.
61. Who will you choose to die with?
-my dog.
62. Where have you been today?
-home to workplace . and read it backwards again.
63. What game do you play often?
-used to be texas poker.
64. Who are you missing right now?
-there’s a man. But im not sure who. LOL
65. If you have to choose between love and friend, who will you choose?
-love. I miss my fren but we’re no longer close now.
66. What are you doing right now?
-thinking of what she’s thinking abt me.
67. Which primary school are you from?
-bedok north primary.
68. Name 3 colours that you like?
-green. Brown. White.
69. What emotion you like to show?
- happy.
70. What is your life to you?
-old and rusty.
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
-drink. Head out. Smoke.
72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
-melissa. That’s like 4am lol.
73. Are you happy with the way things are going right now?
-I rather things wun change again than keep changing.
74. Which month are you born in?
-March.
75. How are you feeling right now?
-backache lol. Time for back stunt again.
76. What is the time now?
-04.43 dots.
77. Do you like being in pictures?
-sometimes. If I feel ugly better not.
78. How old are your siblings?
-one younger by 5. one older by 2..
79. Why are you doing this test?
-Boring. Its been long time I did this and also to read my cousins answer.
80. What do you do when you're moody?
-quiet or do sth tat interest me at the moment of time.
81. Have you ever been backstabbed by a friend?
-I assume most ppl do.
82. Who was the last person you cried in front of?
-my ex bf. But not much of help.
83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
-perish with my family and dog.
84. Who is the person you trust the most?
-mimie. wahaha
85. Are you wearing makeup right now?
-a lil.
86. Confused about anything?
-ya a lot. Especially projects.
87. Do you prefer to call or text someone?
-normally text. Unless closer frens.
88. Do you believe in eternity love?
-only in Disneys.
89. What feeling do you love most?
-being myself.
90. Do you have a secret that you arent telling anyone?
-ya but they are not important la.
91. Will tomorrow be better than today?
-confirm! Tml what day?
92. Do you treasure every single friendship of yours?
-Im trying.
93. Do you want to see anybody right now?
-yes. I need her nonsense.
94. Is your msn on right now?
-no.
95. What would your name be with the first 3 letters?
-Amy.
96. If you could move right now, would you?
-no. I hope nth disturb me from staying peacefully with my family from now.
97. Are you still schooling now?
-no u dick head!
98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
-I will learn to care for myself. Or destroy myself.
99. What if your partner two timmed you?
-pretend I dunno and do the same back trice.
100. How do you feel right now?
-a lil wet. I need the toilet liao. lol